The Window

As I look across the window of my past at all the memories I've built over the years; I see the simplicity screaming out of every picture on those yellow walls of time. I see how easy everything seemed back then. I see people i thought would be there with me till the end. I see happiness in all the simple things and grief for things that now seem insignificant. I see the flaws and i see the merits. I see myself grow an inch taller through the years. I see shadows in every alley way left undiscovered. I see the page turn on every book left unread. I see decisions made too soon and others, well, too late. I see myself shedding away parts of me as i made my way here. I see my reflection in that window, only to see a younger version.
In ways, i can no longer recognize my self anymore .. I've changed.
Change is not necessarily a bad thing, some of these changes were actually for the better. It's more of a shade of grey that i'm working hard to perfect.

As I turn my back on that window and head out through the door, i see a million pathways lined with adventure and paved with an equal share of fear and excitement. I see billboards and signs telling me where they think I should go. I see distractions everywhere .. LIGHTS .. NOISES .. and PEOPLE; lots of them. 

My vision is blurred and i feel the urge to dive back through that window into the comforts of the known past; but i need to go on. I was destined to go on. 

A decision has to be made. Life is just one decision after another; but in the end it all comes down to one. Are you willing to abide by the laws of  your Creator? Yes, yes that much i know. 

I see it know. If you look really hard .. past all the billboards and the signs .. past all the lights and all the temptations lining these bricked paths .. Past all those people telling you what to do or what to wear or how to act or how to live your life ..if you look hard you can see them. 

Two roads. And I have reached my decision.

I just have to get past all of this to get to YOU. On the way i'll sometimes forget where i'm going. But believe me, with all these distractions who wouldn't? But when i forget i'll make sure it doesn't last for long. I'll remind myself of the conscience decision i made back by the window. The decision to go on .. to venture into the unknown with faith that YOU will guide me on my way.

So here i am reminding myself yet again. Reminding my self that i'm a person on a mission to find the road that ultimately leads to Allah.