Eternal

Watching him wither away, it was easier to imagine it wasn't him anymore. It's hard to let go but back then, it was even harder to hold on.
Day after day, i would hear them telling me he was only getting worse and i know i should have gone to see him but somehow i kept putting it off. The thing is i was afraid to see the man i idolized at his weakest.
I never forget the way he would encourage me and tell me i was better than that image i had of myself.
Call me selfish but this is the way i wanted to remember him "Strong". Call me selfish but this is the way i wanted HIM to remember ME; as the person who looked at him in awe and not the person looking at his weakest self with pity.
Still, i'm sorry i didn't visit .. i'm sorry if i'm not the person you thought i'd be.
He had the purest soul and this soothing, most reassuring voice i have ever heard.
People forget but i never do. I see you in every victory i achieve and also in every defeat urging me to go on.
My teacher .. My mentor .. My idol .. May your soul rest in peace.
Who knows maybe i'll come over in the eternal land for tea and we'll pick up where we left off; just like all those times back at your office talking about everything but never nothing.
May we reunite insha'Allah.